I strive in hurtful and emotionally difficult situations; recently I was asked if I was masacistic because of my odd apreciation for pain and it's effects.  It is not enjoyable at first, but distruction forces me to conjure up my true strength, love and understanding for myself and the world in order to conquer it and control how I allow events to effect me.  I continually amaze myself with the strength of my true nature when motivated by such necessity; I feel cleansed, reawakened and powerful. 

Loosing attatchments gives me an insightful gratitude for blessings I often take for granted.